You win some you lose some

A blog was a good idea right? Please tell me it was a good idea. Finding time to just sit down and write is quite the challenge. I have many ideas to share, we will see which ones make their way onto this page.

No pictures of me skiing so you get to see my adorable 3 year old rippin it up.

No pictures of me skiing so you get to see my adorable 3 year old rippin it up.

I had a major let down last week. I messed up my left ankle and knee. Our diagnosis is a Syndesmotic Sprain or high ankle sprain.

How did this happen you might ask? Well, I decided it was a good idea to go skiing. That, in and of itself, is not so bad, but I thought I could hit the black diamond soft crud like I used too. Keep in mind that I only own telemark gear, this means that I am basically doing lunges with each turn. My body is as out of shape as it has ever been, my muscles don’t work the same, my core is shot, and I decide it’s a great idea to go gallivanting down the mountain without a care in the world.

The mountain bit back and decided I needed to care a little more. Dang! It hurt! I fell and the tip of my ski got stuck in the snow. I twisted my tibia and fibula in ways it’s not meant to be twisted.

When I asked my ER Dr. husband what he thought might be wrong, he said, “Well, worst case? It’s broken. Best case? You have a bad case of wussitis” I never thought I would be happy to say, I had a bad case of wussitis.

Even with the good news, I was pretty distraught. With all my energy around getting in shape, I injured myself enough to limit my ability to exercise. I cried a few times that night out of frustration. I have felt so down about my image, about my weight and to have another limiting factor, it got to me.

Fortunately, the leg has been healing quickly. This injury may be a blessing in disguise. In order to lose weight and be healthy, I will now have to focus more on the food I am taking in. I will still find a way to exercise, but it will be limited until I heal.

I have started recording what I eat, writing it down. I found a new app, Virtuagym Food. It helps me set a goal for caloric intake plus records my % consumed of carbs, proteins and fats.

A sampling of recording my food. Laboriuos, but eye opening. 

A sampling of recording my food. Laboriuos, but eye opening. 

This is the hardest part for me, food. I love food. I use food to help me feel better if I’m down. I use food to reward myself for something or nothing at all. I am learning about my slightly unhealthy relationship with food. I don’t want to just brute force healthy eating. I want it to be part of my lifestyle. More to come on how to do this, because, I don’t yet know.

There has been so much happening in the past few weeks, but I will have to save that for another blog post. In the meantime, please share, what do you do to help yourself eat healthier?